David Guy’s essay, “When Work Is Play,” resonated with me. I, too, am a writer, and I have struggled (and still struggle) to turn my back on the external and internal organization that says you must work, you must make money, you must do what doesn’t come naturally. Until age thirty-four, I tried to make a deal: I would do whatever it took to gain status and an upwardly mobile lifestyle. I would get a Ph.D. (in the related left-brain field of linguistics), teach college, do electronics research. With the rest of my time (what little there was after I had a child), I would write. It didn’t work. Playing, serious playing, takes a lot more time and a lot more space than I ever imagined.
Watching my daughter grow, I have learned a lot. Like David Guy, I had a sense of recognition, hearing her in the next room playing dress-up while I was in my study, dressing myself up in the guise of different characters. The connection between sex and creativity resonates too. But I wonder — what about women? A lot of women I know have a much harder time playing than men. Fathers play easily with their children, but women, locked earlier into a greater sense of responsibility for child-rearing, are often stuck in other, less flexible roles.
Women sometimes have greater latitude (although less and less these days) to sit home and not account for their time. But I felt this as an extra burden. I had a good professional job before I gave it up to chase an elusive muse around my study. The way I dealt with some of my fear when I quit my job was to tell people I was now just a housewife. I had avoided this at all costs previously; anything was preferable to being compared to those angry, unfulfilled drudges of my childhood.
But more and more I see myself as just a person, learning how to live. As I learn to play in my writing, I learn to play in other things, too. It helps to satisfy the craving I have for intensity, for meaning, for wholeness in my life. Thank you, David Guy, for illuminating that.
Margaret Kahn
Menlo Park, California
I have been receiving The Sun for the past few issues. I had decided to subscribe because of some advertising I received — I was impressed with the wisdom of some of the messages. I remember how beautiful were the words you wrote which began: “What have I ever craved more than a woman’s arms?” I thought this statement was very romantic and sensual. Then I received the February issue [Issue 147] and was offended by the graphic, mechanical type of sex in David Guy’s “When Work Is Play.” For this I could have picked up a flesh magazine. Somehow I expected something more — and different — from The Sun.
I don’t consider myself a prude and believe lovemaking between two mated souls is one of the greatest wonders of the world. Casual sex, on the other hand, which contains no more depth than a fast-food meal contains nutrition, seems rather empty to me.
Shirley Briggs
Yorkville, Illinois