Hold it
                in
                     until your heart
is a steaming cup and everything
that once made sense is water until
every page is ripped from the spine
and piled at your feet so every step
is an effort greater than talking until
every truth and every lie are paper
boats sent swirling down to the gutters
to the sea then let it
                                             out
                                                     one drop
one word at a time.

Count the oceans.