I’ve logged more experience than most with simplicity and the complexity you discover inside simplicity, minimalism and asocial behavior, endurance and landscape.
Here is the truth: I think some deep wisdom inside me (a) sensed the stress, (b) was terrified for me, and (c) gave me something new and hard to focus on in order to prevent me from lapsing into a despair coma — and also to keep me from having a jelly jar of wine in my hand.
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A stink bug perches on the bristles of my toothbrush. I know more about ventilators than I should. This morning’s coﬀee tastes luxuriously of earth. As I run through the forest, pileated woodpeckers hammer and cackle from above. I’ve got an ache in the ball of my foot. Some things never give up. Nearly every surface in this house is covered in dust. It’s astounding how many people are dying at once. A wild turkey limps across the road. I don’t want to do the things I should. The streets are quiet except for the chirps of birds. The campus is silent. Students’ bicycles rest on flat tires. Squirrels are taking over the neighborhood. Matching cuts on my middle fingers throb, but only when I focus on them. Sidewalks aren’t wide enough. A little girl who had epilepsy, like my son, just died from probable complications of the coronavirus. The full moon works its gravity on seizures and tides. The morning sun shines in sideways, its light like opals. There’s a niggling tickle in the back of my throat. My wedding ring clinks like a wind chime against my mug. Steel-cut oats get stuck in my teeth. The chair I write from groans and squeaks. Pride gets in the way of apology. Reflections are everywhere and everything. I’m forgetting faces one by one.