Letter From The Shaman:
Up From Down, Raw From Cooked
In the beginning was the wind and the wind was on fire. To teach us up from down, raw from cooked, he formed the clouds that brewed the rains that fell to earth and chased all fire up into ash and hickory, maple and oak, where still today it blazes through October afternoons, where still today, when we’re oppressed by night and wind, ice and age, we can go to bring it down again.
Letter From The Shaman:
The Dance
The first woman and man came near one another, wary, wondering, sniffing, sighing. Pines swayed. Willows. Ash. Their mingled breaths, the air between them, they called “wind.” They danced up and back, side to side, hips circling like birds. They barked, whistled, babbled, howled, tongues twisting. Drum and bone. Flute and wind. The din they called “song.” Ever moving, they heightened the friction between them, motioning until sparks flew. They discovered fire. Rain came from them. Smoke. Mist. Steam. They called it “spring.”
Letter From The Shaman:
Salt, Oil, Sweetness, Love
He made the eye salty so grief would sting, and beauty, and too much mourning make us blind, the ear oily so bad news and gossip, death’s rattle and cough could go in one ear and out the other, the lips and tongue sweet so we could savor the nature of sea, field and tree, make a feast of every word, so we could love.
Letter From The Shaman:
The Colors Of Pain
There’s a pain the color of a piece of raw flesh; it can be drawn out with salt, fire and smoke. There’s a pain as blinding as the desert hunters cross on their slow way home from where there was no game. to cure this requires one good prayer, eye and hand, one stone hurled at heaven, one plump bird plummeting. For the pain white and blue as the water churning around a drowning man, move the victim into fresh air. There are pains crimson as the sun’s rise, its fall, pains the varying shades of night; to cure these takes time.
Letter From The Shaman:
Drought, Famine, Age
When the sun draws up creek, pond and pool because he’s grown mad staring at his own reflection, old ones must teach the children to chew grass and roots, meat red and raw as a wound, songs that summon thunder, lore of the beaver and canoe, a fear of every kind of fire. When the hunters and planters grow crazy or lame, lazy, drunk or too stiff beside their young wives, old ones must teach the children to stalk and leap, move fast as cloud shadows across the plains, stoop and rise like the crow, the lore of seed and wind, name of every grain. When the babies are taken by drought, famine or age, old ones must teach the children to groom their long hair until it glows like the night sky, to dance together, whimper and groan from bushes, shake the tentpoles every night, give their hands to one another, trace the image of woman and man.
Letter From The Shaman:
Cures For Cynicism And Despair
If you doubt for an instant the awful power of the law, pluck a wasp from the air with your bare hand, trust in the dollar’s worth, feast on the juicy flesh of a pig cooked medium-rare, hurl stones and insults at police and then resist arrest, travel to the country of age and swear “I’m only visiting, I can’t stay.” If your world becomes too dry and you come to feel “Beyond my own life nothing is,” or you swear “When death comes walking slowly up the stairs I’ll run to get my coat, go with no regret,” then listen to your blood thundering through its course summoned by a whisper’s roaring eloquence, the sea in the ear’s conch, a lover.
Letter From The Shaman:
The Calling
At sixteen I grew too sleepy to move. I’d lie alone for days praising the beauty of nothing, until in the sky high above the nighthawk, owl and pine I’d see things. I found my voice, my tongue, learned to bark, sing, wriggle, fly. When I’d been alone in the forest three weeks, I learned the frail language of wood, moss, dove. After four weeks without women or food, my penis, belly and heart taught me the drum. Now I can cadence you through the dance of rites, seasons of loving and birth. I’ll frighten leanness from your cattle and babies, march your girl and boy into woman and man, seed into tasseled corn. I’ll find your hunters lost in snow, your souls. You’ve a hurt? There’s a root, an herb, a word.
Letter From The Shaman:
He Orders You To Listen
Listen. The birds and dogs. Pine and ash. Your penis, hair, nails. All are speaking to you. Listen. Winds bear souls. Initiations. Expirations. Gales of death-breaths. Listen. Every star’s a tall tale. Look up. Every pebble’s a sharp truth. Go barefoot. Listen.
Letter From The Shaman:
Dying Just Once, Loving Every Other
The last dream means a room, brightest you’ve ever seen, where long-time lovers simmer with a passion time can’t cool, where no one falters, where there’s no ache, though everybody’s touching, no one dying just once, every lover loving every other.
Letter From The Shaman:
Mourning
Let the businessman rend his suit, cancel all appointments, hurl paperweights and bills of lading to the floor, pound his metal desk, scatter ashes on his head. Let young women and men who move together (even as I write) come apart, keep hands to themselves, walk out into snowy woods shapeless in coarse cloth, alone. Let the mother withdraw her breast from the baby’s lips, migrating birds fall from the sky to walk earth aimlessly. May nothing leap, run or speak, for at this instant, someone we’ve never known, much less loved, clutches chest or side, falls all the way to ice or flame, or starts from sleep, and waking, dies.
Letter From The Shaman:
Rites To Prepare Yourself For Death
Try to hatch a boiled egg or weave your shroud from just two threads or break the wind and mend it. Try to distinguish wind from seed, spore and leaf, dark from night, mourner from lament. Try, with your final love, at the instant pleasure transfigures your face and makes you more than you are, to tie a knot in your last stream of semen. As darkness falls, wish hard for clay and peace, say “If I only had the time.”