My Daughter’s Room
My daughter lies sick in bed. I pace across the small room, rubbing my hands together while she tosses and groans in pain, her hair stuck to her head that is hot with fever, her eyes cloudy and far away. Outside, the snow melts on the fence as if nothing had ever changed and never would. A few eager birds have returned north too soon and a few blades of grass have sprung up amongst last fall’s dead growth. In her room, my daughter’s presence, like that of the universe, goes on forever and is filled with stars. As I reach the light, one star recedes and another winks into sight. In this blink of time, I bend and brush her arm. She opens her eyes and my dead father looks out, his smile both wan and sly.
Another Saigon Intersection
There is a monk who haunts me. Not the one burning, the black human smoke rising up my nose, but the one who is alive, the sparrow who flies into the wind, the one who is a flower. Thirty years ago that man sat down. What’s happened since that afternoon? I have busied myself counting the leaves that have fallen from the cottonwood trees along the street. My father is dead. My daughter has been born and only yesterday celebrated her fourth birthday on this earth. I look at her and cry. I thought I’d get used to her. Five million old people tell me I never will — each day these tears of joy.