The Namer
Red Hawk was the oldest man I’ve known. He came that first time to my vision camp by the Buffalo River. He made a big limb fall at my feet; He made a big dog come to my tent like a pup and befriend me. These are very little things, He said, just to get the attention of a fool. Later He made me see what I am without lies and pretending. This is a bigger thing, He said, getting a fool to pay attention to himself. Still later I saw how I am little and live at the Mercy of something big. That slowed me down and shut me up. This is a big thing, He said, filling a fool’s attention with Mercy. The last time I saw Him He said, You take this name I am wearing. It is a big name and you will feel its weight. It will be a burden and demand more than a little man can give. This name will change you so you walk softly with an open hand and see a long way off. This is a good name for a little man He said. And He left me with that.
The Way Of Power
I will tell you how it is with Power. The Way is hard and easily lost. Take me for example. Once i had a tiny power no greater than the breath of a bird, the power to make the words. But it was more than i could handle. I was sloppy with it: spoke too much and at the wrong times; used the poems badly for my own glory. So the Power was taken away. Even the breath of a bird made me vain and arrogant and i used it to make myself little. Now i sit still on my porch and i see how I am a stupid man who was made sick by the bird’s breath. I am dying of it because the breath got inside me before i made myself strong and now it is blowing me away like a small bird without strength caught in a high wind. What is left for me is to die quietly because my stupidity made a big noise. This is what i know about Power.