Special Problems In Vocabulary
There is no single particular noun for the way a friendship, stretched over time, grows thin, then one day snaps with a popping sound. No verb for accidentally breaking a thing while trying to get it open — a marriage, for example. No idiomatic phrase for losing a book in the middle of reading it, and therefore never learning the end. There is no expression — in English, at least — for avoiding the sight of your own body in the mirror, for disliking the touch of the afternoon sun, for walking into the long flatland that stretches out before you after your adventures are done. No adjective for gradually speaking less, and less, because you have stopped being able to say the one thing that would break your life loose from its grip. Certainly no name that one could imagine for the aspen tree outside, its spade-shaped leaves spinning on their stems, working themselves into a pale-green, vegetable blur. No word for waking up one morning and looking around, because the mysterious spirit which drives all things seems to have returned, and is on your side again.
Empire
It’s hard to write inside an empire. The air conditioning blows directly in your face. The waitress stands there right in front of you, blocking your view, and just as you are telling her you’ll have the soup a plane flies overhead, dragging an ad for fast food towards the nearby football stadium. There is reggae coming from the kitchen, where some foreigners are paid to be invisible. The TV is selling some insidious stuff to remove hair from your back. It’s hard to write inside an empire, because the ink is made from the eyelids of baby mice. The paper is manufactured by someone on trial for drinking blood. All around you, in a circle you can’t see, young men with guns are facing outwards, protecting you from interruption as you go on writing a poem comparing the courtship of your parents to beavers building a dam — how they cut down trees with their powerful teeth and dragged the willows into place to make an underwater fortress with fabulous views and childproof locks, to keep the kids from getting out.