Wasp
Why should I have to deal with so-called human beings when I can be up on the roof hammering shingles harder than necessary, driving the sharp nails down into the forehead of the house like words I failed earlier to say? And when a few wasps eddy up from their hidden place beneath the eaves to zoom in angry agitation near my face I just raise a canister of lethal spray and shoot them down without a thought. Don’t speak to me, please, about clarity and proportionate response. The world is a can of contents under pressure; a human being should have a warning label on the side that says: Disorganized Narrative Inside; Beware of frequent sideways bursting of one feeling through another — to stare into the tangled midst of which would make you as sick and dizzy as those wasps, then leave you stranded on the roof on a beautiful day in autumn with a mouth full of nails, trying to transplant pain by hammering down into a house full of echoes.
A History Of High Heels
It’s like God leaned down long ago and said, to a woman who was just standing around, “How would you like a pair of shoes that shoves the backs of your feet up about four inches so you balance always on your tiptoes and your spine roller-coasters forward, then back, so that even when you are spin-doctoring a corporate merger or returning from your father’s funeral in Florida, your rump sticks out in a fertility announcement and your chest is pushed out a little bit in front of you, the way that majorettes precede a marching band?” No, I shouldn’t have said that — I’m sorry. It’s just my curdled bitterness talking; it’s just my disappointment flaring up in a little brush fire of misogyny, in a toxic chemical blaze of misdirected scorn — because today is one of those days when I am starting to suspect that sex was just a wild-goose chase in which I honk-honk-honked away three-quarters of my sweet, unconscious life. Now my hair is gray, and I’m in the Philadelphia airport, where women are still walking past me endlessly with that clickety-clack, clickety-clack, flipping their hair and licking their teeth, while underneath my own shoes I suddenly can feel the emptiness of space; and over my head, light falling from the sky that all these years I might have been leaning back to gaze at and long for and praise.