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“The Wisdom Package.”
I ask the youngish eye doctor why my eyes itch and burn and why new floaty bits of paramecium-shaped debris swim through my view each day, and he tells me enthusiastically that this comes absolutely free with the wisdom package—an honor I have been awarded. I blink. And, he adds, the wisdom package comes with lots of other free stuff too, but just like life, some people will get more than others. I guess he’s in his thirties, forties tops, and I am falling in love with him for his gentle way of reminding me I’m getting old and that it’s a privilege. I’ve passed the air-puff test, seen my retinal scans, which look like the red-orange surface of the sun, each with its pinprick dot of optic nerve—thin thread connecting the eye to the dark, ornate theater of the brain, where the picture shows of our lives play. I laugh and ask him about knees and knuckles, liver spots and forgetfulness, and to each complaint he answers: Wisdom! Wisdom! Wisdom! We do not know one another’s stories, how many each of us has lost, the who or how of it, from war, disease, or fate’s unfairness doling out more death to some than others. He and I give each other’s hand a quick squeeze, let go, and get back to the business of my sight. He swings a heavy black heart suspended from a giant arm in front of me, clicks through pairs of lenses with the careful ticks of a slowing clock. I blink and answer him each time: clearer, better, thank you, yes, much clearer now.